Red or blue pill??

Dey say fear a man wit nuttin 2 lose
B`cause he has no remorse 4 the thingz dat he may do.
But i regret every second...
Dat i hurt U.

Life is like a game of chess
No matter wot move i make
U expose my weaknesses.

Have i really lost u?
I show no emotion... due to pride.
If only... u had x-ray vision
To c how i really feel inside.

I fooled u den i played tha fool!
I had it all.
Right place wrong time.
Wrong place right time
Lost it all.

Trapped in da Matrix
But optimism wudnt let me quit.
Trapped in da Matrix
But i cant forget u or jus let u go.

Red or blue pill...Which would shud i pick?